Jun 4, 2009

It's official, I'm freaking out

I'm officially starting to freak out. Two weeks with out my girls is fast approaching and I'M NOT READY. I've never been away from them for that long, not ever since the day Casidee was born. One week is my tops (yay girls camp!), but two weeks? What if they decide that Dad's house is funner than Mom's? Actually, it is. Because he only takes them for weekend sleepovers, so of course that's so much more fun than chores and schedules and school. What if they don't miss me? What if they aren't happy to come back to me when the time comes? It would break my heart, these girls are my world. I'm always fighting the impulse and feelings that "Dad is more fun than Mom", because right now he gets to play the role as the "Disneyland Parent". Fun, fun, fun, to make up for the lack of time with them. I hope that as they grow they can appreciate the solidness with me. The work and lessons, and yes, the fun with me. I'm far from being the Disneyland parent, but I'm HERE for them. I have one more weekend with them and then... just let me survive the next two weeks with out them. And if it's not too rude to hope, let them miss me like crazy and be ready to come HOME.

7 comments:

Jami said...

The girls are going to miss you like crazy. You may or may not be the Disneyland parent, but the girls feel happy and secure with you, and that goes a lot further. (Remember how good it felt to get home from Disneyland?)

Jessica T. said...

Such great advise from Jami! Although it is always nice for a so called "excape" from reality... We always can't wait to get back to our comfort zones, our structure... don't worry... they will miss you more than you'll know!

Tiffany said...

Even when my biological dad would TRY to be Disneyland dad, I would HAVE to call my grandma everyday that I was with him and would cry myself to sleep... They WILL miss you.... And yes one day they will be grateful for their rock..

Unknown said...

Speaking from experience..they will miss you! As time has gone by with Lydia she loves her dad and his family, but in the end she is always SO grateful to be home with us again.

Michelle said...

The "Disneyland Parent" will run out of things to do by day 2 or 3 and they'll soon realize he isn't as fun as they thought. Then he's just one of us regular boring parents. Just enjoy your two week break and don't stress yourself out too bad. They will be so excited to get home to you!

Jason and Audrey said...

enjoy the break. But yes, they will miss you. You are what they need. You and I were playing practical jokes in my dreams a few nights ago. I laughed when I woke up. he he!

ellaeldredge23 said...

Great advice from Michelle, that's pretty much how it is. I'd actually get in a huge fight with my dad every vacation I went on with him and wished for the first flight home to mom. The moms (if you live with them more) are always the solid ones that we miss the most. I've been without my dad since I was 6 and I'm so grateful to be raised by my mom. Even the "Disney World/Universal Islands Of Adventure" trip and all the fun summer vacations with my dad doesn't top actually "being there" for me like my mom and Daniel. They'll be just fine when they come home. Moms always win Lol

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